At 12 o’clock on the evening of May 3, Chongqing. After several hours of freezing, the body lay on the autopsy table with sallow skin. The medical examiner is taking a second round of blood and urine. The lights are extremely bright, but this room is a white night in the funeral home. The passages outside the door are facing a row of cremation furnace doors a few meters away, and they will gradually open after a while. Time has just turned over the old day, and some people have left and some have been born again.
45-year-old RoyceWong has experienced countless such nights.
RoyceWong looked at a skull model teaching aid. There is a wealth of information in the real skull, such as the gender of the deceased, the south or the north, etc.
A collapse
RoyceWong’s daughter was frightened when she visited her workshop for the first time: when she entered a row of glass cabinets, more than 100 skulls were covered with a whole wall. That is the nameless skull collected by forensic doctors in their work. Men, women and children are far apart, and the empty eye hole will refract light at a certain angle, like a gaze and reminder. This is the Criminal Investigation Corps of Chongqing Public Security Bureau, and RoyceWong is the Deputy Chief of the Forensic Investigation Brigade.
Forensic Qin Ming’s best-selling crime novels give the forensic profession a lot of powder, but suspense stories are entertainment after all, and real work is not. RoyceWong has been a forensic doctor for 23 years and has performed autopsies on more than 5,000 bodies. More than 5,000 lives, none of which was once fiction.
RoyceWong is the first batch of forensic medicine graduates from Xinjiang Medical University. "I wanted to study medicine but didn’t want to smell the medicine in the hospital. As a result, I chose a more unpleasant major." This is the bottom of her jokes.
The day of crying is behind.
In the first 15 years of her career in the northwest, she was the only forensic doctor in the city, and she went to all the scenes in the counties and villages under the jurisdiction of the city. How busy are you? In the first five years, I could only sleep four or five hours a day on average. Death never talks with people about time, and forensic doctors have to stand by 24 hours ×365 days. At that time, communication depended on the BB machine, and she often couldn’t find a phone reply. She simply lived in the office. There is a telephone in the office.
The first collapse came soon.
A dead man was found in a ditch, and his colleague tied a wicker basket with a rope and put her down for autopsy. The poisoned person has an abnormal smell after corruption, and the whole trench is densely filled with that smell, like pressing her in a rectangular box without air holes. She is alone.
Three hours later, she was poisoned, dizzy and unable to stand. Back at work, she kept washing until the skin began to dehydrate, and the smell in her nose was still the same. She felt that it was all in her blood. She drinks again, trying to volatilize quickly, but she still can’t. When drinking, tears are like avalanches, and my heart shakes: there will always be a few moments in my life when I question and ask alone — — Why should I live this life?
For her, this moment came a little early, 25 years old. The smell completely dissipated after more than a month, and she decided to change careers and review for the postgraduate entrance examination.
destiny
Fate is that no matter how many predetermined routes and sudden changes there are, no matter how the path diverges in life, you will eventually take the road.
High-intensity work, high-intensity review, a few days before the exam, a case was sent.
A man in his 40 s suspected his wife was cheating and cut her more than 100 times.
— — "Almost chopped into pieces, in front of two children, one is 11 years old and the other is 8 years old."
— — "All the surfaces on the wall and the ground that can be attached are covered with blood … … After a long time, the two children kept silent, didn’t eat, and didn’t sleep. "
Young female forensic couldn’t help shaking all the time. Eight million ways to die, any of which is a mirror, and some will reflect the face of people turning into beasts.
Before the execution, RoyceWong went to see him and asked him if he ever thought about children. He said that the brain is blank and thinks nothing; Asked what else he wanted, he said he only wanted to pay for his life as soon as possible. He wants a pair of new cloth shoes and walks again.
"This case didn’t cry. It was sad from the beginning to the end. It was on my heart and I was there every day. I couldn’t move and couldn’t hide."
I missed the postgraduate entrance examination, so let’s miss it. She decided to stay as a forensic doctor.
What is friendship?
It’s cold in the northwest. Most days in winter are at MINUS 20 degrees Celsius, and winter is endless. Like work, every day is the same day.
The warm friendship of a Uighur girl comes earlier than the snow in winter. This is her assistant. In countless times in the wild without autopsy room and at night without bright lights, there are only strong winds, rain and snow, ice slag and muddy water next to damaged or intact bodies. She and she, the world is boundless.
It’s too cold. My nose is frozen and my nose is dripping. My assistant will wipe RoyceWong’s shoes, clean RoyceWong’s shoes every night, wash her clothes and tidy her toolbox. This year, two girls experienced four or five hundred bodies. The friendship of fighting side by side is that the leaves falling quietly at 2 am infiltrate the soil and nourish the trees silently.
There are more and more such feelings, some of which are life and death.
It’s another wild scene, the car can only be parked 2 kilometers away, and RoyceWong and his colleagues have to walk into the mountains with all kinds of tool boxes. When I arrived, I found that I was missing a box weighing more than ten kilograms. A male colleague couldn’t bear to let her go back and carry it, and rushed back to get it.
There was a loud noise and the sun turned blood red.
Someone installed explosives in the car, which was detonated at the moment when a colleague opened it. Everyone is running in the direction of explosion, and fear is ineffective at that moment. The victim and the living have long grown into the same tree. You have to find your relatives, and nothing can stop you.
RoyceWong searched bit by bit and pieced together the fragmented bodies of his comrades. The man disappeared, like the air, like the wind across the field, everywhere, but she couldn’t catch it. She felt pain all over her body, her hands ached so much that she couldn’t lift them, and things around her began to shake, and the sky in front of her became dark in a second. She passed out.
Many years have passed, and this quiet afternoon has been repeated. She can only speak one word at a time, and sometimes she stops for two seconds.
That comrade-in-arms is someone she will never forget in her life. She was trapped in an iron cage of remorse and felt that her comrades had sacrificed for her.
Things that are not for sale
There must be a moment when a forensic doctor is deeply touched and heartbroken. At that time, a forensic doctor has completed a key leap: starting from death, understanding life in reverse, and understanding emotions and logic beyond personal living space.
RoyceWong’s crossing was in the year of pregnancy.
When I was pregnant for 5 months, a baby just born for 3 months was killed by my cousin. RoyceWong began to cry when he arrived at the scene, and his tears didn’t stop during the whole work. She can’t touch her belly, but she will keep thinking about the baby in her belly. She wants to give time to press the pause button, but she can’t press it. The best forensic doctors are also people, and people only have different pain points.
Seven days before RoyceWong gave birth, a pregnant woman was killed. The murderer chased and killed a family of four, and the pregnant woman was chased and killed outdoors.
Female forensic, who will be a mother in 7 days, will identify the death of another mother and child in this way. RoyceWong couldn’t bend over completely, and he couldn’t squat down. He couldn’t stand for long with his hands, and his tears kept falling.
The robbery will make people soar. In the past year of pregnancy, RoyceWong has performed autopsies on more than 500 bodies.
When she feels that the whole person can’t hold on, she will drive to the wild, find a deserted place to stop, do nothing and try not to think. Sometimes for hours, sometimes for a day. She never talks about work with her family and friends. This small world belongs to her, and she doesn’t communicate or talk.
"There has never been any resurrection with full blood, just take a breath and continue." Only time can cure everything, wait, wait for a long time.
Coming to Chongqing from the northwest is a cure because of reunion. Her husband’s hometown is in Chongqing, and a big family is finally reunited. In 2010, RoyceWong joined the Criminal Investigation Corps of Chongqing Public Security Bureau, and was responsible for the on-the-spot investigation and identification of abnormal deaths such as suicides, accidents and nameless bodies, as well as the injury identification of ordinary criminal and administrative cases. In one breath, he is the authorized signatory, deputy director of the Criminal Science and Technology Center of the Criminal Investigation Corps of Chongqing Public Security Bureau, and the director of Chongqing Forensic Medicine Society.
"At what moment did you realize a career growth?"
"Yes, it is very clear, very clear, and even very heavy to realize that you are responsible for every name you sign. No matter how many years have passed, that name should be made of iron."
There was a man who died drunk on the side of the road. The alcohol concentration was off the charts, and the common cognition felt that he was "drunk to death". RoyceWong’s autopsy found that there was a rustling sound in the back skin, and the retroperitoneum was full of hematoma, which was caused by external force. There is a tendency to think that it was an accident. RoyceWong insisted that the investigators finally traced the 8 km camera along the way and restored the truth — — The drunken man staggered and ran into a group of young people. A group of people pushed him to the ground, and one of them stepped on his back with his foot wearing leather shoes, which led to the death of crush syndrome.
In-vivo clinical appraisal will be more disturbed, and there will always be interested parties to invite you to dinner. RoyceWong’s husband said, don’t go, I’ll treat you twice as much as they invite you to eat.
"In fact, it’s an instinctive intuition: I worked so hard, put my life into myself, and then, I threw the money and bought it? Not for sale. " "For more than 20 years, I have signed more than 8,000 appraisal reports, and every name can stand the test. This is not for sale. "
Mirror image of life and death
On January 10, 2012, on Zhaomu Mountain in Chongqing, a woman came alone in the morning and sat until night fell. Without saying a word, I didn’t look at my mobile phone. This is RoyceWong.
The first day, she just got the pathological test results of her breast tumor: malignant.
RoyceWong has always believed that forensic medicine is indisputable and generally indifferent. "This profession knows the end of life too much." Every time I see a mirror image from other people’s life and death, every mirror image will eventually cast itself: how people understand their own life and death.
When she got the result, her first call was to call the leader and ask for a long vacation. Then I made a phone call to my husband. I only spoke for 3 minutes. The core meaning is only one sentence: I will treat it well, but don’t overtreate it.
On the day of Zhaomu Mountain, she turned off her mobile phone, and what she thought most was: What about my daughter? My daughter is 7 years old. She remembers that she has never cooked a meal for her children. The little girl who grew up eating in the canteen never complained. Her biggest wish is: Mom, can you be a teacher? So I can have classes with you every day and have holidays together.
She wrote a message to her husband and daughter that she didn’t hand in. Tell her husband: If she leaves, she will be cremated immediately, without ceremony, and return to the land. Say to your daughter: be independent, have skills and do valuable things. Take care of dad, he is not as good as you.
Next, surgery, reexamination, chemotherapy, reexamination … … Treatment is a long way. In 2013, her husband was sent abroad to work, and she had to take care of her children while working. "Actually, the child took me. She is an amazing little girl."
During the summer vacation when her daughter was 9 years old, RoyceWong went to chemotherapy in a wheelchair, and her daughter always took her there. Thousands of people are queuing in the 3A hospital. A 9-year-old child hangs a kettle around his neck. First, he pushes his mother to an empty space where there are few people, and then he squeezes among the adults to help his mother queue up. RoyceWong looked at her little back that was quickly submerged, and tried to wipe away her tears quickly, so that she could not come back and see her eyes were red.
Mother and daughter are connected to each other, and the children hardly cry in front of their mothers. The teacher told RoyceWong that the children would cry quietly during recess, and told the best classmates that I was afraid that I wouldn’t have a mother, so I was afraid.
Many of RoyceWong’s firsts happened after his illness. A family of three traveled for the first time, and their daughters were all 11 years old; The first time I saw the spring breeze blowing red buds all night, it was in the window of the ward; For the first time, I know how much EXO is a singing group that children like, and youth is so beautiful … …
She feels like a person who has no youth, no perfume and cosmetics, no little black dress with stilettos, no wind and waves, always seeing the most extreme face of life, always gazing at each other with the abyss. "I don’t want my daughter to be like me."
After getting sick, the leader took care of her and left the on-site inspection post, but she refused. That dedicated duty phone has a summoning power. It suddenly rang, and that was the case: time, place, number of deaths, situation on the spot … … She will keep a list of things that need to be done in a job, which she has been doing for 23 years. She won’t leave, which is what she told her daughter to "do something valuable".
Being ill for six years, she did it for six years.
In her message to her husband, the last sentence was — — If I leave, I hope everyone will forget me as soon as possible and live a good life.
Slow news — Chongqing Evening News reporter
Liu Chunyan/Wen Yang Ke/Tu
